And they were my saviors. 

When school was making me feel like a total idiot, i ran to them. Spending hours at a time in their dorm room, just laughing everything off. When the exams were around the corner, i studied with them til late at night. trying to wrap our heads around complex chemistry calculations, trying to work out the differences in malay grammar, working out quadratic functions and such. When i was sad, it was their arms that welcomed me, comforting me until i would stop crying.

And i actually thought, 

"Hey, maybe they're the real deal."

total bullshit.

it started at the start of this year really. me and (anonymous) were constantly being cast aside from any activity planned, almost always when we entered the room, they would stop talking abruptly. We're not total idiots, we can take a hint. and recently, they started calling us well... things. One of them in the group recently acquired a new boyfriend, and well, she told him all sorts of lies about me and (anonymous) to him. so much for chicks over dicks besties over testis crap. 

And the sad part about it?

I still love them.